So just recently I went to the VanCity Business Babes Mom Boss Mingle event. I posted about it on my instagram but I walked away feeling inspired and ready to just go out there and own who I am, share who I am, and hustle hard to chase down these little dreams of mine. I thought I would start with a post sharing a little bit about myself! And this post has taken me a long time to actually finish. Partly because I wanted to give it some good thought, and partly because nothing ever gets finished in one sitting around here. Blog posts, meals, coffee … I always have to come back to these things over and over again daily in my life!
So about me… well, first and foremost, I’m a Christian. I follow Jesus, I’m saved by His Amazing Grace and while some might prefer to keep their beliefs personal and separate from business I don’t think I can. It’s a part of me, it’s part of who I am. I will love you no matter what your beliefs are, I may not always agree with you but I will love you just the same.
I’m an extroverted introvert. I am starting to realize this is a “thing”… It takes a lot for me to get out the door and be social. I don’t think I was always this way, or I was really good at faking it. But now I’m nervous before I go out, often even when I know the people. And then when I do, I feel like I need a day or so to recover. Once I’m out I feel like I’m ok at it, most of the time. I can be good at striking up conversation with people – even people I don’t know – but it pretty much ends there. I over analyze the things I say to people and usually say something really dumb – at least in my mind – and it’s waaaay worse when I haven’t had caffeine or enough sleep!! After the initial meeting and hello I’ve realized I have actually no idea how to become friends with people after that. I guess I’m really good at making acquaintances? So if you meet me, or if you know me now, and your first impression is how friendly and outgoing I am but I never take steps to further the friendship please don’t think I’m a snob. I am just stuck in a place of social anxiety that paralyzes me and tells me that you probably don’t want to hear from me anyways. Socially AWKWARD should be my middle name, at least that’s how I feel sometimes! Can anyone relate??
I love being creative. I am totally that “pinterest mom” … or maybe I want to be? I think it comes from having a Pinterest Mom before Pinterest was a thing… my mom is an artist and was totally the one to make us our halloween costumes, make our cakes, send creative things in our lunches, make artistic gifts for all our classmates and friends. She was the girl guide craft leader. So I do come by it honestly, though I’m not sure I’m quite as talented as she is. But I love it. I love throwing themed parties, I love making the kids their costumes and going all out for crazy hair day, and cutting their sandwiches into shapes. When the twins were little I loved creating little “invitations to play” – both for a few minutes of sanity and for the creative outlet it provided. It’s partly what made me start Feather + Fern busy bags, knowing I wanted something for my own kids!
Case in point as far as my “pre-pinterest” upbringing:
Cute little flower Amanda
I am a total kid. I’m a nerd. I give up trying to be “cool”. You’ll find me running through the park with my kids, learning all the words to the latest Disney hit, (or fast rap songs! ha!) and having dance parties whether my kids are around or not.
Speaking of dance – that is something I absolutely love to do. I needed something that was just for me after my twins were born and found an adult group with amazing, talented ladies who love to compete! I’m a pretty competitive person – some people join beer league sports – I joined a dance team! I love it so much, and these girls have become great friends of mine, I’m so happy to have found them.
I love all things trendy and absolutely love to shop local and small but I’m totally the one who will try to find the trendy treasure at the thrift store, or the awesome score on the clearance rack.
But on the flip side, I want to live with less. I love minimalism, but it’s a journey and a process. I’m nowhere near “there”… I’m serious, in some rooms of my house I’m fairly certain people might be compelled to call the show “hoarders” … (but then I watch the show and feel way better about my situation… haha!) I get sentimental about THINGS and have a hard time letting go of them. But I’m working on it! Baby steps! I’ve created a capsule wardrobe that was AMAZING. Seriously revolutionary. Then I got pregnant with Silas and somehow it’s not quite the capsule it was. I keep waiting for when I have my “body back” but I am pretty sure no one took my body so I should probably get on that again!
I wish I could say I don’t care what people think, but I do, probably too much.
I’m a photographer and take approximately 34970137480173017381703 pictures of everyone else but have a hard time stepping in front of a camera myself. I’m trying to get better at this and get my hubby to snap a few (instagram husbands, am I right?) because I want my kids to have photos with their mama in the picture. It’s so important. I have to put aside and body image issues I have, because those issues are MY issues, they are not my childrens’. They don’t see me the way I critically see myself and I need them to see me loving myself. But mamas, it’s hard. It’s such a struggle. I’m fairly certain I’m not alone here. I’m working on it daily, but it’s definitely a struggle.
Anyways, that’s a short novel about myself. If you’ve made it this far, THANK YOU, you’re amazing for reading all this without falling asleep! 😉
So now it’s your turn – tell me one random thing about you in the comments – I love getting to know my readers!!